Journey into the unknown

Let me start off on a lite note! This weekend I went out on a HOT, HOT date....with my friend K. lol. She said she's been out on more dates with me than anyone else. Yay! I feel special. A couple of other friends met up with us. Anyway, we ended up going to the Factory of Cheesecake, UNFORTUNATELY, because it was raining like a bitch and so it wasn't particularly good weather for walkin around and finding a new restaurant. DAMN! I wanted to try something new. DAMN YOU CHEESECAKE FACTORY with your salty ass dumplings...I was getting high blood pressure just sniffing those mothers....

Annnnyyyywhoooooo...on to the main topic....

People have heard me say before that I don't wanna have kids. It was always kind of a half-joke, half-serious type comment but what happened today solidified my feelings. Mind you that this is just my feeling at the present moment, and who knows? Maybe if I meet a nice gentleman, I actually MIGHT change my mind and procreate like apparently I'm supposed to.

Let's just say that today, I got into a 'discussion' with a colleague of mine, who, in essence, believed that she shouldn't be helping out the less fortunate. [That's just me paraphrasing....I don't have the room to write all she said] We were sitting with some other people too, but it was mainly me and her in the discussion.

I just don't understand how you, AS A HUMAN BEING, cannot be concerned about the welfare of those that might not be as fortunate as you are??? She claims that people take advantage of 'the system' and basically end up getting free money...she even came at me with some RIDICULOUSLY RARE cases of people taking advantage of the system. I explained to her that those people and cases are the exceptions rather than the rule.

My logic is, this is fricking America. People take advantage of loop holes ALLLLL the time. But apparently it's OK if the rich do it, but not the poor. I say, if people find a loophole, GOOD FOR THEM!!! Take as much advantage as you can because people rip one another off every day in this DAMN country. As long as them taking advantage doesn't affect me directly, I say go ahead.
I cannot stand capitalism!!! Capitalists, mainly the sick Americans, are greedy bastards who only look out for themselves. They lack any sense of caring and are, to me, NOT what I would define a human being to be. She lives a RIDICULOUSLY comfortable life and just because she "THINKS" someone might be getting some of 'her money' illicitly that the whole idea of socialism and making sure everybody gets healthcare and education should be scrapped??? I only WISH that these people knew what poverty was...or even had a chance to experience the task of living from paycheck to paycheck...then their damn tune would change.

I struggle everyday with the thought of bringing a child into a world like this. YES, I know there are good people out there or whatever, but I just wanna put an end to it, because I really don't see the point of people existing. If this is how they are gonna act, bring on the nuclear bombs to blow us all out of existence and put me out of my misery.